Move On

So, I've been thinking a lot for the past few days...and I've realized that I have to move on. I cant keep this up. Now I have another problem though, knowing I have to move, and actually moving on. It's not easy for me...it's not like I can turn it off just when I want to. It's not like I can stop feeling the way I do in a heartbeat. But I have to try. I have to meet new people, and do new things.

I need to accept what I have, and what is given to me. I have to learn how to live and deal with what happens in my life whether I want to or not.

Im happy, but am I?

So...
I hooked up my best friend with the girl he's like for FOREVER. I'm really happy they are finally together and that they have a good relationship. I'm happy cuz hes happy. But...at the same time I'm not. I'm constantly jealous of the way he treats her :( I know it may be stupid, and I cant expect him to treat me anything like that bcuz well I'm a guy. And so is he. I mean I cant even hug him without him feeling weird so yea, hes one of those who are affected my societies evil poisons. Anyways, that's besides the point... the point is that I die every time I see them together, every time he talks to me about her, every time he kisses her. Its just horribleeeeeeee. I want them to stay together forever, I really do. I want them to get married and have children, but I want my jealousies to go away. I want them to vanish and I cant get that to happen. I try so hard to hide them, but sometimes I just cant....Then he asks whats wrong and I have to say nothing while my heart is breaking in half.....