When someone else...

Sometimes you realize your not in love when someone else steals what you thought you had given away. When someone else shows you that they care, and they treat you the way you should be treated. When someone else gives you their trust, and maybe not love at first, but their heart. When someone else makes you feel happier than you ever thought possible. When someone else gives you you butterflies in your tummy.

When finally, someone else...is yours.

New

So, as you keep on living your life, experience after experience, you realize different... mistakes; errors you have committed. But, other than that, you also realize that things are going to change. Everyday is a new beginning, with new challenges and new experiences. You never know what tomorrow will bring you until it becomes a yesterday. It may bring you a new Hope, or a new let down. The important thing is you keep on going with your head held high. You learn from your mistakes, old or new.

A new tomorrow can even bring you a new Love, if your lucky ;)

Move On

So, I've been thinking a lot for the past few days...and I've realized that I have to move on. I cant keep this up. Now I have another problem though, knowing I have to move, and actually moving on. It's not easy for me...it's not like I can turn it off just when I want to. It's not like I can stop feeling the way I do in a heartbeat. But I have to try. I have to meet new people, and do new things.

I need to accept what I have, and what is given to me. I have to learn how to live and deal with what happens in my life whether I want to or not.

Im happy, but am I?

So...
I hooked up my best friend with the girl he's like for FOREVER. I'm really happy they are finally together and that they have a good relationship. I'm happy cuz hes happy. But...at the same time I'm not. I'm constantly jealous of the way he treats her :( I know it may be stupid, and I cant expect him to treat me anything like that bcuz well I'm a guy. And so is he. I mean I cant even hug him without him feeling weird so yea, hes one of those who are affected my societies evil poisons. Anyways, that's besides the point... the point is that I die every time I see them together, every time he talks to me about her, every time he kisses her. Its just horribleeeeeeee. I want them to stay together forever, I really do. I want them to get married and have children, but I want my jealousies to go away. I want them to vanish and I cant get that to happen. I try so hard to hide them, but sometimes I just cant....Then he asks whats wrong and I have to say nothing while my heart is breaking in half.....

My Best Friends

My best friends mean everything to me. They are probably the most important people in my life after my immediate family. I love them, I would do anything for them. But sometimes I feel like they don't see that. I feel like they are my best friend, but I'm not theirs. Many times over, I have been rejected, neglected, lied to, ignored, and have been unimportant to my friends and that makes me feel really bad. I just feel like I treat my friends so good, I'm so great to them, and they just don't reciprocate, not even a little. I don't ask for much as a friend, I just ask that you show me what I demonstrate to you all the time. It makes me feel like shit, and I don't think my friends are supposed to make me feel like shit, right? I just wish that when I say "I love you" to a friend, he or she says it back. I just wish that my best friends would show me that I'm their best friend to. I just wish they would show me they cared.... :(

Why?

Things do not always work out the way you want them to...they just don't. I have a problem, and its a really big problem...I am in love. That's the problem. I am in love with someone whom i can never be with. What i want to know is why? Why do I have to suffer, while he likes somebody else. Why does he have to give his heart to someone else when I have given him mine. Why can't he see that i would treat him so great, and the girls he likes just wont treat him the same. It is really sad for me...

The good thing about all this is that I have him in my life. He's always going to be there, and I don't want to lose that. I love him more than he knows, and i want to keep it that way. I want him to be as happy as I can make him from the position I occupy in his life. And if he gets that happiness by me helping him get him the girl he likes, so be it. I will suffer and get hurt, but hes happy and that is what is most important to me. As long as me and him can stay best friends the way we are now, forever, I'm ok with that. Even if I have to cry myself to sleep every night, wondering why this had to happen to me. Even if I have to be there, seeing the guy I love be with a girl, suffering with a knot in my throat, I'll do it. I would do it all for him.

I just wish that one day, he could see how much i love him, and how much i desire for him to be with me. Because maybe, just maybe, it might happen. Why you ask? Because life is full of surprises.

Love

"True Love Waits"

I believe in this quote sooo much. I just got out f a really dysfunctional relationship, I didn't like talking, going out, nothing. Zip. Zero. It was a really weird combination. Do you know why? 'Cause i was desperate to find love that when a little fling I was really only interested in the first day came up, i was euphoric.

You need to wait for love to find you. You can't want to go out there and try to find it, 'cause what you might get is a weird fling like mine. There is time for love, there is time for everything.

"True love waits"- so dont get ur panties/undies in a knot :D